One step closer to a big Mac for Addison

Today was the babies 4 month check up. They are actually 5 months old today but we had to reschedule their appointment a month ago because of First Steps evaluation for Anthony. We have determined that Anthony has a toracollis. Basically, from what I understand, he has one muscle longer on one side of his neck. It is pretty much a stiff neck for a baby. He has been rolling over by himself on his belly and back to his back for about month now but he isn't using his torso at all. He is only using his neck muscles (arching to the right) instead. So we are having to do some therapy to get him to use his head to the left a lil more. Kim his Physical Therapist told us that she isn't going to do any stretches on him until she has an x-ray to make sure that she won't be hurting him. She also said that it is probably due to the positioning in the womb. Huh imagine that, it was a lil crowded in there.



Today at their visit Grandma Harb showed up to help us with immunizations, always a heartbreaker. That is the worst feeling holding your child down so that they can give them a shot. Ugh give me chills thinking about it. They did great though and stopped crying as soon as it was over.



The babies are now 13lbs. and 13lbs. 6 oz. with Addison in the lead. Mommy's lil porkchop. I can't even begin to explain how much it hurts her feelings when her bottle is empty. We are now giving them 6 oz in each bottle and hers is gone in half a commercial break! Once her bottle is done she starts eye-balling Bubby's bottle. He is still so pokey and she looks at me just begging for me to let her finish it off herself. "If he ain't going to finish it can I?" One morning I gave her a bottle in her bottle prop. (the best thing ever invented for parents of twins. It is basically a doughnut pillow that you put the bottle through and prop the bottle up for the baby in their bouncy seat) Addison does really well with it and I take advantage of that while it is feeding time. I set her up with a bottle and then I have all of the time in the world to feed and concentrate on Anthony. This particular morning I was feeding Anthony and Addison was at my feet in her bouncy and she finished her bottle. The bottle toppled over onto her lap and she just stared at me with this blank kinda "ticked off" look. "Are you kidding me that is it!!? That is all you've got??!" I just looked down at her cooing and smiling at her and I got NOTHING in return! Just utter dissapointment that I only gave her 6 oz. That wasn't even the kicker she began to tap her fingers on the bottle prop like she was impatiently waiting for seconds. What a piggy!



I figured with the babies getting bigger, older , and Addison giving me the evil eye once the bottle is empty that they might be able to start on some solid food. The doc agreed and we rushed home to mix up some cereal. I have put cereal in their bottles for a while now and they have done well with it but haven't introduced a spoon yet. Mommy was VERY excited! I mixed it to a very runny consistency and the babies were ready for anything resembling food at this point. They were an hour late on their bottle at this point. It took a lil longer to get Anthony's x-ray, but he did really well. I set up the camera so that I could show daddy their first spoon feeding. Don't laugh... I am sitting on the floor of my kitchen and I have my Tupperware drawer pulled out and a cookie sheet placed on top to make a shelf for our digital camera. (tell me I ain't crafty) Anthony, I believe, was a lil too upset already by the fact that dinner was late and wanted nothing to do with this spoon thing. Addison on the other hand was fine with it. The only problem was that food doesn't come fast enough with a spoon for her. She wants CONSTANT food in her mouth and a spoon, better yet mommy with a spoon, doesn't cut it for her.

Morning reflections

It is 8 in the morning the babies are fed and smiling and Victoria is still asleep. I am sitting here with my head swimming with thoughts of real estate. James and I found two houses that could work for us in Pekin. One that I LOVE and one that is really pretty but I am not sure that it is laid out very well for our situation. The house that I love is about 3 miles from my parents. It is a completely remodeled 4 bedroom 2bath home with a full unfinished basement. It comes with two acres that is backed up against Peek-a-boo lake. Peek-a-boo lake is very pretty and all of the houses on it are really neat, mostly owned by doctors in the area. All of the bedrooms are on the ground floor and the yard is flat and on the corner of a dead end road, so there wouldn't be alot of traffic so the kids to play in the yard safely. The kitchen is a lil small but the back entrance to the house is through the kitchen and it would be easy to expand down the road. We could expand it into a mud room/pantry. All of the bedrooms are of a nice size and are on the ground floor. All kids could have their own bedroom if we chose to separate the twins now, or we could turn one bedroom into an office and put the pull out couch in there for Makenzie and Brooklyn to have their own space when they come over. The house is completely remodeled, like I said, and the carpet is new along with all of the oak trim, new light fixtures, and new cabinets in the kitchen and the bathroom. I already have it decorated in my minds eye and have been mentally living there since we saw the home. I immediately felt like I was at home when I walked in the door. The basement is a clean slate and we could do whatever we wanted with it, office, entertainment room, craft room, etc. There was some water in the basement that we believe is from the basement windows that we would need to fix.

The other home is a log cabin about a mile, if that, behind my parents house. The home is really pretty and is more secluded in woods. I believe it comes with 3 acres. The house has more of an open floor plan and a pretty open banister to the loft. It has 3-4 bedrooms (depending if you are wanting to turn the loft into bedroom or not) and I believe has 3 bath. This house has been foreclosed on and they are already asking for 50,000 less than the original asking price. I like the wood but EVERYTHING in the house is wood, almost too much wood. The carpet needs to be replaced and the basement has one room stuck in the center that is very small and everything around it is unfinished (the basement bedroom is just "odd" I can't explain it. The grounds isn't landscaped and the yard is basically a mud pit. When we looked at the home the family had already moved out obviously. They had left behind alot of personal belongings and trash EVERYWHERE (the home had basically been trashed with stuff). The air in the home had a very unsettling feel. Almost like they left the sadness of losing their home behind when they left. I can't explain it. On the good side there is a full porch across the front and back of the home and the back yard flows downhill to a creek that you can hear from the house. I can totally see myself outside on the porch drinking coffee in the morning to the sound of the creek. The yard has potential but alot of money and work is going to have to go into it to keeping the yard from flowing down the retaining wall right into the basement as mud. It comes with 3 sheds, that my HGTV mind says need a coat of paint, so there is plenty of storage that we could use. The house is priced where we need it financially but I am not sure that it is the house for us. I am worried about the openness of the stairway with two growing babies that are going to be learning how to climb and explore. The bedrooms are not on the same level and for all of us to have a bedroom when we move in Victoria would have to take the basement bedroom, which I don't believe would fly with her. Basements are not her favorite thing.

I don't know. Thank you for listening to me ramble about decisions. I am not really good at them. Especially thinking about decisions that are long term. We are desperately needing more room to live in and it us just a huge decision to find a home. I just needed to get these thoughts off of my chest to see if anything would make sense and a clear option would present itself. But guess what it is not. My favorite home isn't priced to do what we need to do but the cabin is. Any suggestions would be appreciated.

Lord please watch over my washer and dryer

Well it is back to the grind here at the Craig house. James left early yesterday morning after a wonderful weekend that consisted of a 21 hours. We made the best of it. We went to church and then treated mom and dad to dinner at Tumbleweed. We haven't been out to eat in a long long time. Our pediatrician realized that we do not owe a co-pay on well visits to the doctor and refunded us our money back in a nice lil check. Unexpected money is always nice and we took advantage of it in the form of food and treating others to it. Mom and dad have been so good with helping us out with so many things that it was nice to be able to treat them. They followed us home and helped us feed the babies and headed home, then we put the kids to bed early (wink wink)

Mom and I took the kids to the zoo yesterday and we had a really good time. It was a lil nippy outside and we had the babies bundled up so much they "couldn't put their arms down!" It was pretty intense while hiking to the restaurant to find some hot water to warm bottles. Anthony was SCREAMING. Mom was trying to keep up and I was booking it to the gorilla exhibit to see if the cafe was open. Thank God it was and before you knew it we were ready to give the babies lunch. After burping and adding one more layer of clothing to the kids we were off to see the elephants. The zoo in the winter is so nice. The animals are more active and there is hardly anyone there.

Well as my title states today is laundry day. Lord, is today laundry day. My mom was laughing at me when I told her this and took Victoria by the hand over to the washer and dryer and said a lil prayer that they will make it through what they about to endure. Hopefully by the end of today I will be able to see the hallway in our "laundry room" (which is the walkway into our bedroom)

Craig cuts open for business

Before you even say it YES I am aware that my children are going to hate me when they get older. I just can't help it. They are so much fun to accessorize. My friend Stephanie got these for them at my shower and I have been waiting for them to fit fora while now. So every time I put on a new outfit I have to see if they look good with their sunglasses.

Today was day two of doing hair at home. I have to say I really enjoyed it. I originally thought would be too messy and that the lack of a shampoo bowl would be a problem but I loved seeing my friends again that I used to see only at work. Early in the day My friend Mary Beth (MB) came with her adorable mom and I cut their hair. MB decided to cut all of her hair off to her shoulders. I have to admit I am inspired and thinking of doing the same thing myself. It was just too easy to fix! Oh this is dangerous I have shears at home and I am unsupervised! Later in the evening I did my friend Ashleigh's nails. She brought a color board for Victoria and she spend the time that mommy was working, coloring on Strawberry Shortcake. (am I really that old that the things that I played with as a child are "cool" again?) It was great to see adults! We just aren't getting out much these days with the bitter cold that has appeared recently, so it is great to have the company. Plus it is a nice feeling to add to the bank account instead of always subtracting.

I thought we were friends!

My buddy Marlina and I have been on the fitness track encouraging each other to be better in what we eat and working out. She sent me home with her BASICS ( I stress "basics") to yoga DVD. She is into it and wants me to get up to speed so that I can do Yoga with her when we work out. I happily took the DVD and borrowed yoga mat and headed home. I walked to my car feeling very confident, thinking "OK yoga 'whatever' I don't see how this is going to do anything" Well today I got the opportunity to pull out that DVD and give it a try. I didn't even bother getting a water bottle to keep near by. The instructor began with a simple downward facing dog position (OK no big deal) I got into that position and realized that in the time it took me to get into "downward facing dog" the "dog" had already faced about 3 other ways. Here I kneeling, crouching and stand and sit in the living room with Victoria in the kitchen eating her spaghetti o's saying "Mom you are doing a good job". I am teetering over, losing my balance, and finding it hard to breathe as I try to find my toe to grab so that I can stretch it to the other side of the room (yea OK that is easy!!) I have never felt so uncoordinated in my life! Typically I can catch onto things that require movement coordination and things of that sort, but let me tell you this yoga is no joke! I did two 10 minutes sessions and I ready to call it quits so that I could catch my breath and put the couch upright again since I tried to knock it over while attempting the downward facing dog with the leg extension. I think I am going to have my work cut out for me trying to keep up with Marlina in this yoga experience. I think next attempt will be supervised with a spotter to keep my lamps and chairs from falling over as I try to maintain my balance standing on my head with my legs tucked behind my ears. "Oh I love yoga it is so relaxing" HA!

My new favorite thing!

Today was the day of friends. My buddy Jill came over to visit. She teaches and took advantage of the holiday to come and see us and treat us to the most amazing pizza Ihave EVER had. She brought Papa Murphy's stuffed chicken and bacon pizza. I AM IN LOVE! I almost pushed her out of the way when I saw the pizza in her hands. I haven't had carbs for a while now and my mouth watered at the sight of this pizza that hadn't even been baked yet. Their pizza it the best. They make it fresh at the store and you bring it home and bake it. We sat and chatted while we munched on this heavenly pie. It was great to catch up.

We also had the company of my friend Leslie. She was a sweetheart too and brought us some flowers. I got to chat with her some and catch up on the latest happenings in her life. I just love friend days. It makes me feel like I am still connected to the outside world.

My new son!

Yesterday I had reached my emotional breaking point with Anthony's arching and screaming. This past week he has been in so much pain. I called the doc after calling James and mom crying about my inconsolable son. I felt so helpless. There is no feeling like not being able to give comfort to your kids. One of the docs had an opening and we rushed in so that we could make the appointment. It was a doctor that I haven't been to before in the practice and he was AMAZING. He said the same thing that the other docs said about the acid reflux and constipation being the culprit. He changed his medicine and told me to get him some Karo syrup. He took his time and answered all of my questions. I love my pediatrician!

This morning I awoke to a brand new Anthony. After I gave him his new medicine (which is quite an adventure to give him let me tell ya that is a whole post in itself) he was a brand new boy. I put the syrup in his bottle and five minutes later he was bouncing off the walls. The sugar rush post has nothing on the sugar rush he gets from Karo syrup. He was soo happy and giggling and smiling non stop while kick- kick- kicking. He had 3 dirty diapers (the first ones in almost 3 days) and he felt great. He only arched once today and for the first time fell asleep in his bouncy seat straight up and not flipped backwards like he used to. I am so thankful. I even called the office to tell the doc thank you for giving my son peace. My prayers have been answered. I am curious to see if tomorrow will be the same. All I know is Anthony and I have been waiting a long time for a day of smiles and no screaming.

I hope this morning translates in print

Today was a great day! I woke up this morning and first thing refreshed! I was surprised because I didn't really get any sleep at all. Mamaw and Papaw asked if Victoria could spend the night last night and I of course said "SURE". I spend the entirety of my evening with her gone saying to myself "You should be productive!........... Lay down! .....................Why don't you get something done?....................... Take a nap! ................................I should just get that load of laundry folded....................Take advantage of the quiet house and rest!" Well I eventually realized that I had been doing all of this talking to myself while parking my behind on the couch so I might as well stay there. So American Idol was watched and I have to say so far not impressed!

Ok so on to what I hope translates in print. I woke up this morning to the babies toy that was purchased with Christmas money from Aunta Kathy. It is basically baby TV that you attach to the side of the crib. It plays music and has lights and what not. Well there is a button on it that is in the shape of a crescent moon that you can push and it activates the toy and a light show appears on the ceiling and music starts. The music alternates every time that you push it from a very soft soothing voice of a woman saying "Its bed time" then a song and then the next time you push it she says "It's lullaby time" then the next time that you push it music plays and then crickets chirp. (By the way sorry about the long drawn out back story but you will understand why in a bit) I awoke this morning to this toy saying "Its bedtime, It's lullaby time, music, chirp, It's bed, It's lullaby time, music for 2 notes, chirp chirp chirp, It's be, It's lull, music (4notes) and then one chirp, and It's, It's, chirp chirp. " I am not typically a morning person anyway and I couldn't figure out what in the world was going on with this toy. I just changed the batteries a week ago and they couldn't be low by now. So I go and investigate. Anthony, my dear son, has woken up become upset and kicked his feet and threw a fit so much that he has scooted himself into the corner of his crib where this toy is and is belly down pushing his forehead into the little crescent moon button over and over and over! He is purple madder than anything and trying to scream at the top of his lungs. He has lost his voice from crying he is quite temperamental these days. So here is my son barely squeaking a sound out a nice shade of crimson and violet and pushing his head into this toy that is just as confused as he is making all kinds of racket. I just don't' know what I am going to do with that boy.

I got him and his sister fed and headed to Travis and Marlina's to drop them off while I went to my counseling session. GOOD session. I am learning alot! I headed back to Marlina's and we went walking around her neighborhood. We walked 2 miles and I can't begin to tell you how good it felt to be outside. It was freezing today about 30 degrees but it was great. I picked up Victoria and she was an angel today after being at Mamaw and Papaws (not always the case) While we were eating dinner she turned to me and said "Hey mom you know what we can do when we get done eating?...Play Sugarland!" Although one of my favorite groups I am sure they don't have a board game. I pulled down CANDYland and she beat my butt again! We headed off to church and then back home to fold those clothes that I put off folding the night before. Tonight was a very very special night for Victoria. She has been trying to learn how to fold socks. This is something that we have been working on for a while now. Tonight for some reason a light just went on above her head and she got it on the first time. She was beaming with pride! I was so proud of her. So I of course had to grab the camera to document the big event.

Diva Day for Addison

My husband is going to kill me when he gets home although he believes this is the best pic of her yet. We met Grandma Harb at the grocery store today so that she could help us shop. I saw it as an opportunity to show off my daughter's inner diva. I have been waiting for her to fit into this outfit for quite a while now. This came in the bag of clothes that our Chiropractor gave us that their daughter grew out of. I fell in love with it when I saw it. SO ADORABLE!

Well tomorrow is day one of the new excersice routine. Marlina is watching the babies for me while I go to my appointment and then we are going to work out. We are going to do our best to be in top notch shape for the October wedding. I am going to do my best to get back in shape and feel a lil bit better physically and mentally. I think being a few sizes smaller would just be a bonus if I could just get some energy and drive back. If nothing else it would be an excuse for me to get into their hot tub on a weekly basis after working out.

The little snowman that could

Victoria by her snowman (you have to look REALLY hard to see it)

Victoria has been bugging about making a snowman since Dec 1st. Her papaw has talked about making them and she has checked outside about everyday since to see if it has snowed. Well today she checked and sure enough HUGE fluffy flakes were falling. We both got excited because it was a very pretty snow. I grabbed the monitor and camera and had her put on her "sproklie" tights that Santa brought her and layered her up and we went outside to play. Daddy was leaving for work but didn't miss the opportunity to throw a snowball or two himself. Victoria had a ball and I have to admit that I did too. We caught snowflakes on our tongues. (as you can see by the pic) and Victoria and I finally made our snowman. It is about 6 inches high but you would of thought that it was 6 feet tall judging by Victoria's reaction. The snow was melted by noon but our lil guy made it. I sat him on our porch so that Victoria could open the door and give him a peak when she wanted to see him. She is now telling me that we have to go to Walmart and get a magic hat, thanks to Grandpa Jerry, so that he will become real. What a magical morning. All that we need is a glue stick to put in his hand.

Admitting that you have a problem is the first step

I am obsessed with HGTV!!!! I am not aware if there is a support group for this new addiction that I have but if they do I hope they provide paint and fabric swatches. I just sit there in my living room squirming, ready to go to Home Depot and buy a power drill and saw. Plus I would need one of those awesome nail guns. I would decorate every square inch of my home and everyone Else's home too. I would be out of control. If someone would come to visit and would happen to stand still long enough I would build an entertainment center around them and strategically place vases and photo frames on it to accent the color of their eyes. "Hi name is Kelly Craig and I am addicted to HGTV"..............."Hello Kelly"

Baby alives birthday party

Little did I know that today is Victoria's baby alive's birthday. It did give me a perfect opportunity to keep her occupied while I got some stuff done around the house. I made her a list of pictures that she would have to get done for the big party. She had to clean her room and bake a cake and set the table up and everything. She really got a kick out of it especially when I finished making our lunch and brought it into her room to eat during the party. We wore sunglasses and sun visors and ate our sandwiches all gone. I brought baby alive a present of Addison's clothes that she doesn't fit into anymore. Even put it into a gift bag. Baby alive didn't show any excitement thought (surprise surprise) She just sat there with her mouth open never blinking.

Anthony's first sugar rush..."go" baby "go"

Today started early with James and I packing everyone in the car and heading to Pekin to look at some homes. We actually found one that we both agree on and we are going to talk to a bank tomorrow about it. Keep your fingers crossed for us!



After looking at homes we rushed home to get James to work and to clean up the house a lil because I was having some company tonight. Anthony had been a bear all day with arching and screaming. He is REALLY constipated. James wanted me to take his temp to "help things along". I have to be honest that just freaks me out. I decided to call the pediatrician and find out if I had any other options. They told me to start giving him juice diluted down. I was very excited and I took off to Meijers after getting done doing hair for a friend to get my babies their first juice. Apple Prune had Anthony's name written all over it!



After heading home and sending Victoria to her room for the final time today (Thank you mamaw and papaw for pumping her up with sugar and sending her home!) I got out my new bottles that I just purchased and made a 2oz bottle. His eyes got so wide. He couldn't believe his taste buds. "This isn't milk!?" He gobbled every last drop and grinned from ear to ear just looking up at me with such a thankful look for that new experience. About fifteen minutes later I was on the phone with James and Anthony took off pedaling his feet as if he was riding a bike trying to escape the cops. I started cracking up and had to capture it on video so I could share is with you and with James when he gets home. Short and sweet but I present to you Anthony's first sugar rush!

"First Steps" towards a bright future

Today was our ISSP for Anthony with First Steps. Basically it is where they sit down and work out a plan to decide which therapy and therapist is best suited for him. He has been having some issues with his feeding. I don't know if I had written about it before or not. Poor lil guy either collapses a nipple to the point of no milk coming out or just not sucking at all and letting gravity drip the milk down his throat AND chest AND pants AND mommy!! It has become very frustrating. Plus it started to affect his weight gain.

First steps evaluated him on Monday and determined that his posture was more of a concern than the feeding issue. You can see in the pic that he throws his head back when resting that his head sits at a 90 degree angle from his body. He is like that all of the time in his bouncy seat, and in his crib if he is sleeping. They think it is due to his positioning in the womb. Anthony arches his back so bad that he has started rolling over onto his stomach too soon in life. This scares me to death because Anthony hasn't figured out to move his head to the side so that he can breathe. I am now suppose to dress him extra warm and not use a blanket so that he won't suffocate if he is to roll over in the middle of the night.

First Steps has also offered help to Victoria. They are able to get Victoria eligible for counseling through Bridgepointe Goodwill Services. Someone that comes HIGHLY recommended. I had to fight back tears when I found this out. God has really come through for our family. Now her and I can both get help that we so desperately need. For that I am truly grateful.

James is coming home tonight and we are going to go and look at some houses in the Pekin area close to my parents. James and I had fallen in love with a log home about 1/4 mile behind my folks place. It looks beautiful judging by the pictures listed on the website. It is getting ready to be foreclosed on and they are willing to take an offer to keep them from being foreclosed on. James and I hate that for any family but we are hoping that this means great things for our family. There are a couple other homes that we are going to check out too close to my parents. We just have to figure out if any of them would work for our lifestyle and budget. Wish us luck and send some prayers out for us.

"Oh-No-Oh-No It's off to work James goes"

Well tonight is James last night at home. His vacation time has come to an end and I am sad. We didn't really accomplish much. He almost sold his truck (until at the last minute numbers changed and deals were broken at the dealership), We went out to eat just the two of us at Longhorn Steakhouse (thank you Ashleigh), We got to visit with our friends Travis and Marlina, The babies got to finally meet their adopted aunt and uncle Nevel and Anita, and we got to spend some time just hanging out and watching movies. Family fun night was a blast, thanks again to FamilyFun.com. I decided that we are not going to stare at the TV and we were going to actually............................(big gasp)................INTERACT WITH EACH OTHER. It went over well, better than I thought. We played murder. I know not a "family friendly" title to a game, but you play by passing out cards (one cleverly marked as the murderer card in this case was a smiley face) and the person that gets the murder card "kills" people by winking at them. We made it more interesting with one lit candle in the middle of the living room as our only source of light. The kids got a big kick out of it and we now have new inside joke in the family about how we died, sometimes VERY dramatically and ways that the murderer was "outed". I have tried to have "family fun night" before with little to no cooperation and it was a nice change to see everyone involved in hanging out with each other and not hanging out with the big colorful square in the living room otherwise known as the TV.

Today my loving husband stayed at home with the kids so that I could go with Marlina to the Special Occasions Bridal show. We started early and accomplished alot today. I am always eager to go someplace that is giving out samples of cake! But when we ended up at David's bridal and tried on bridesmaid dresses it reminded me , painfully might I add, that it is time to start that diet. My mid section is out of control!! Man, kids and stress can really do a hurting to a set of hips. I think I see the outline of a pancake on my right thigh I swear! I have got to get under control. So tomorrow it is South Beach time. My only problem is I am going to have to buy a scale to chart my progress because I broke the last one. I "accidentally" threw it in the trash can. I need to get off of here before I enter my sugar coma for my last night of binge eating. Hey, like you wouldn't do the same thing! Don't judge!! Wish me luck!

I have found my calling!

James and I went to Home Depot yesterday before picking up the kids from Grandma and Grandpa's house to pick up some plastic insulation for these things that some manufacturer is trying to pass off as windows. I didn't fully understand the concept of this plastic insulation. I was expecting duct tape and some tarps over the windows. Boy was I wrong! James started in the nursery. He put this two sided tape on the edges of the window and pressed this plastic up against it and then........... are you ready I got to pull out my fancy hairdryer from work and seal the plastic and make it shrink wrap to the window. You can't even tell that it is there unless you touch it. I am amazed. I am sure that I am the last person on the face of the earth to find out about this stuff but let me tell you I am now a "professional plastic window insulation installer". I even turned to James and said " I am having a ball do people get paid to do this?" Once I found out yes I think I am going to open up my own business. I just need to come up with a clever name.

A fresh new start!

Hooray for 08! I hate to see 07 go it was a good year for the Craig house. We became pregnant and gave birth to Anthony and Addison, gained custody of lil Victoria , laid my career aside to be a full time mommy and I survived!! Going from a one person home through the week with her cat to a one person one toddler and two infants has been a very hard change for me. I am very glad for the chance to start anew and make some changes. Here are my open and honest resolutions for 08:

1. Be kinder to myself!! I need to cut myself some slack and make some changes in the way I talk to myself. I have been through alot this past year mentally and physically and I need to realize that my responsibilities and body are not the same as they were when I was 18. "Things" are not going to be where they used to be and are not going to "bounce back" like in the good ole days.
2. I need to be more patient! My fuse has become the length of a candle wick and I need to lengthen it about 10 feet having children. My time is no more important than the next person. Plus yelling at the person in the car in front of me is not going to get me any more help in finding time in my day to get everything done.
3. Love on my kids more! The dishes can wait my children need more hugs and playtime. Heck I need more playtime. Plus I need to practice my Candy land skills I keep getting my butt kicked.
4. And every one's resolution. The Diet. I haven't started it yet but I need to get this weight off. Either that or I need to find a way to start breast feeding again. (That was the best diet EVER!!! I could eat a whole turkey and still lose 5 lbs)